I need to vent about this otherwise I feel like I might hurt myself..

So me and my ex-friend liked the same guy. I told my best friend I might go after him then she went behind my back and told the other girl (katarina and jaime is the best friend) that I said that. Then when I tried to apologize to Jaime, she twisted my words! Then Kat tells Jaime that I talked shit on her (yeah I'll admit I said it was bitchy that she'd go behind my back and tell Katarina but nothing more! I love this girl like a fucking sister!!). So my best friend won't talk to me and neither will her sister or her sister's boyfriend! I apologize to Katarina and yeah.

So my friend ashley asks the guy out for me anyway, then Katarina finds out. She gets mad again. She goes after the guy too, (mind you I've liked him longer but I didn't tell her until late) and it doesn't work out.

Then today, she tells me "Oh well it didn't exactly work out with me and Billy either so, I forgive you"
I'm like "I don't need your fucking forgivness"
Why would I want to be friends with the bitch who broke me and my best friend apart?! REALLY THOUGH?! SHE THINKS I'LL JUST FUCKING SAY 'OKAY' AND GO ON MY MERRY FUCKING WAY?!?!?!?!?!!?! FUCK THAT NO I DON'T NEED HER FORGIVENESS!

I MISS MY BEST FRIENDS! THE MORE THEY IGNORE ME THE MORE IT KILLS ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I fucking hate it I feel like I just want to die.
I miss them......